Tangled Memories

You let me know how far can I feel hurt. For me, you are divider man. Tip of your hair that incisive coiled and whispered to me, ”this is your sick limit that you can feel. Can’t be more.”

 This is the most sad, the most hurt.

But in good side, I am not afraid to love and being hurt again. Because in fact, no one can’t hurt me like you did. They just will be like welt that I let fade away it self. But sore that you gave, it’s not going to be easy.

This is sore inside.

It’s not welt.

It’s more dangerous, Babe.

But, as long as from you … it’s okay.  As far as it’s you, it’s alright . They will grow inside my body. Just like seed and I just let it life.

That time, memories dragged me gnaw at narrow street alone. That wall was told me about road when time go back and I saw our happy reflection. Everything turning until I realized this is only my mind. A tangled memories.

We will spend our whole life together, right? (No)

And then I am smiling because remember that you want me so much. You said that you better die if you lost me. But in fact, you are still alive, even smiling … with her.

That wise people were right. There is time when condition upside down, wheel turning, and it’s my time for want you. It’s love, but my obsession slowly dropped from my heart. Made me deject because I want you so much.

Slowly I surrendered a paper full of memory ink. But you hurried to refuse it. Even close your ears tight when a clock tinkled. They appoint time when we were us.

One year passed. But sequence of memories still neat on my mind. Just like wet ground that poured yesterday. I hope time will help me to fix it. Help me to dried ground when our memories grew up prosperous.

They said that love will change as time passed. Even after one year passed, something will change. Maybe they lied. The proof is I am still like this. Same with me who loved you one year ago. Moreover, it increased more and more, piled up in my soul. Maybe this is why I always forgive you. Because love made me forgot how much you hurt me.

Maybe you think that I am forget you. Maybe you think that I am happy with someone else. But to forget you … its not easy.

I also think, that you happy with someone else and then you forget about me. But, do you think the same? That forget me is not that easy.

I’m not sure.

And then I asked to memories that goes around: "if my time is almost over, what will you do?"

(disclaimer: Pict from google: Tangled memories - Drowned in You. I mix my experience and song lyric from scarecrow - Lee hi. Special - Lee hi.)